Sometimes you work so hard because you feel it’s worth so much. Sometimes you don’t work enough. Sometimes you run because it’s not what you wanted. Sometimes you slow and relent. Sometimes it’s the love you forget. You discard your heart as spent. Sometimes it’s the hate you love, thrashing for something to rend.
Sometimes.
Sometimes you beg me to stay. Sometimes you beg me to leave. Sometimes you’re too honest. Sometimes it’s always deceit. Sometimes your treacherous and cruel. Sometimes you don’t mean a thing. Sometimes you make me your fool. Sometimes you make me your king. Sometimes it’s the love you hate, thrashing against your heart’s traitorous chains. Somehow it’s aways the same.
Sometimes.
For all the times I’ve doubted, I’m sorry. And for all the times I believed. Sometimes might never be enough. But it’s all the time for me. And for all the cruelties I’ve mustered. And those where I’ve only been witness. And all the times in health. And all the times in sickness. And all the times you loved me. And for all the stolen kisses. Sometimes it’s all smiles. Sometimes it’s all stings.
Sometimes.
I never built a cage. I only wanted a home. And sometimes when you’re not there, I’m really glad you’re gone. Sometimes you feel trapped. Sometimes you feel alone. Sometimes you say you’re in love. Sometimes you say you have none. And sometimes you’ll only have me.
But sometimes I get tired. And sometimes I can’t wait. Sometimes I don’t give a shit. Sometimes it makes me crazed. In the end it doesn’t matter, because in the end it’s always the same. Sometimes.
According to many, God is always sending angels with messages telling you what you need to hear, that show you the way you need to go and what you need to do.
God and angels have no concept of time. Time is man’s unique prison. This is why God has given Man choice. Not so that he can choose between good and evil. (You may only ever choose good.) God has given Man the ability to choose when good must happen.
Time is your greatest enemy. This is why man’s every achievement works to conquer time, and why you should spend so much of your time engulfed in other’s stories. Only by living through as much shared time as possible will you be able to successfully conquer time and choose what good must happen at every moment.
You will never make the good choice at every proper junction. But this is what the good man must try to do, and this is what you must try to do if you are to be a good man.
There are terrible quests and there are wonderful quests.
A wonderful quest is something you must do that results in great things. The trials you must overcome, the sequence of time you must traverse must be navigated. You have no choice but to continue or to fail what fate has set before you.
The terrible quest does not result in wonderful things. The terrible quest results in terrible things being overcome. It is a path through evil that Fate sets before you. Not so you may do evil, but so you will live through evil. And at the end, you will overcome the evil. In much the way a ship that weathers a terrible storm, its sailors wake to an oridinary dawn on an oridinary ship on an oridinary sea, still carries an extraoridinary cargo.
The only good in suffering the terrible quest is that the extraoridinary cargo does not disappear beneath the seas of time.
The surest sign of Man’s decadence is when good men and women content themselves with themselves and set aside their will to power. When good men and women set aside their will to power, Mankind sets aside its will.