There are terrible quests and there are wonderful quests.
A wonderful quest is something you must do that results in great things. The trials you must overcome, the sequence of time you must traverse must be navigated. You have no choice but to continue or to fail what fate has set before you.
The terrible quest does not result in wonderful things. The terrible quest results in terrible things being overcome. It is a path through evil that Fate sets before you. Not so you may do evil, but so you will live through evil. And at the end, you will overcome the evil. In much the way a ship that weathers a terrible storm, its sailors wake to an oridinary dawn on an oridinary ship on an oridinary sea, still carries an extraoridinary cargo.
The only good in suffering the terrible quest is that the extraoridinary cargo does not disappear beneath the seas of time.
I am on a terrible quest.